Resisting the feeling

Yesterday I went to the cardiologist. To my immense astonishment the heart condition I developed 3 years ago did not get worse. It's totally stable and I probably won't need to bother much with it for the next 5 years.

Coincidently, I've been becoming able of listening to this song without feeling a knot in the stomach, as I used to. It's now becoming somewhat soothing.

I think it's because I am finally not re-living the nightmare recurrently every "memorable date". I just sort of "remembered" it because I had to do the check up - on a "memorable" month.

I really wish this is in fact the last time I "leave it".
3 years is way too long...